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<i>When something begins,</i>

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<i>you generally have no idea</i>
<i>how it's going to end.</i>

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<i>The house you were going to sell</i>
<i>becomes your home.</i>

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<i>The roommates you were forced to take in</i>
<i>become your family.</i>

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<i>And the one-night stand</i>
<i>you were determined to forget</i>

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<i>becomes the love of your life.</i>

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- Hey. How long have you been up?
- All night.

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I was trying to figure out how to get
the tumor out of Izzie's brain.

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- Then why are you smiling?
- 'Cause I figured out how to do it.

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Once Izzie's in the clear,
we go to the Bahamas,

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and have our wedding on the beach.
The One & Only Beach Club.

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You're gonna actually have drinks
during the ceremony.

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Sure you're OK to be up and around?

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Yes. I have good days and bad days.

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Plus, I don't want to spend our entire
honeymoon in a hospital bed.

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- This is not our honeymoon.
- It totally is.

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- I want you to meet my friends.
- I know all your friends.

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You know all my doctor friends.

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I'm a patient now.
You gotta meet my patient friends.

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And they are gonna love my new husband.

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- Don't make a big deal.
- I'm not gonna make a big deal.

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I'm a bride!

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Iz, come on. I'm getting her a real one.

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I love this one.
That makes it a real one.

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- Everybody, this is Alex. My husband.
- Hi.

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Husband, this is Austin, Star,
Meg, Miguel and Alison.

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Can you turn him around
so we can see the butt?

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- Yes. Alex?
- What, are you kidding me?

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Oh! A big trauma just came in. That's...

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- That's quality booty.
- Right?

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- Congratulations, Izzie.
- Thank you.

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So, uh, I had a good session
with my shrink this morning.

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Did you talk to her about your mom?

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Have you seen your mom yet?

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'Cause she lives a few miles away,
and she thinks you're in Iraq.

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- I am planning to see her.
- When?

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- Dr. Hunt? I'm not on trauma today?
- Follow me, O'Malley.

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Lieutenant Lowell, I'm Dr. Hunt,
we spoke on the phone.

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Major Hunt, it's good to finally meet
you. My CO's told me a lot about you.

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You shouldn't believe anything
Steve Mason tells you.

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This is Dr. O'Malley,
you've met Dr. Torres.

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I'm looking at Charlie's scans,
but not finding anything

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- functionally wrong with the leg.
- Except I can't walk or run or move,

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really, without serious pain.
I've tried everything.

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Medications, physical therapy,
nothing works.

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- Which could indicate nerve damage.
- Or chronic pain syndrome.

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And we can look into pain
management, but surgically,

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I'm afraid there's nothing I can do.

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Actually, there is.

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You could cut it off.

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You can cut it off,

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replace it with a prosthetic leg so I
can get back to Iraq, where I'm needed.

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- Did you know why he was here?
- No.

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- Is it such an unreasonable request?
- Unreasonable?

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- Cutting off a limb is dismemberment.
- That kid made lieutenant at 19.

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He was planning on spending
his life in the military.

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They'll take him back with one leg?

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There have been amputees who've
returned to duty with prosthetics.

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- Voluntary amputees?
- Maybe, I don't know.

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I have to turn this kid away? His CO
sent him here because he trusts me.

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We could get another set of scans
and then try an epidural for the pain.

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Dr. Torres?

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Fine. Do an MRl and an epidural.
I'll take a look at the scans,

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but if the leg is healthy,
I'm not cutting it off.

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- Dr. Bailey, you busy today?
- That depends.

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You got any dying children you
want me to become overly attached to

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- before they expire?
- I have an eight-year-old

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neuroblastoma patient and he's
gonna live. I feel it in my bones.

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- So scrub in with me and see the joy.
- Dr. Bailey, may I borrow you?

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- Who is Santa Claus?
- An old, white man

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who lives at the North Pole and enters
people's homes inappropriately?

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No.

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I'm Santa Claus.

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<i>All systems ready.</i>

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Oh, no, you did not!

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Oh, yes, I did.
The Da Vinci S-I HD Surgical System.

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Tell me you didn't wait until I'd all
but left the general surgery program

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- to buy the Da Vinci.
- Care to take it out for a spin?

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Santa!

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Hey. I was thinking, you know,
with Derek and Meredith getting married,

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they probably don't want us hanging out
in the attic much longer.

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So I was thinking
I'd start looking for a condo.

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Perfect. Then you'd finally have
a place of your own.

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Actually, I was, you know,
thinking maybe you'd, uh...

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- ...you'd come with me.
- Absolutely. I'd love to see it.

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I am so happy for you.

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How much of that did you hear?

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The part where you asked her to move in
with you or where she shot you down?

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I was here for both. And, by the way,

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it's just way too early for you
to be moving in with Lexie.

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- You don't have to do everything I do.
- This is not about you.

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I have my own future to think about.
Life is short.

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- Look at what's going on with Stevens.
- Don't worry about Stevens.

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I got a plan.

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- You want to remove her hippocampus?
- One of them.

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It's a common procedure.

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Removing her hippocampus could
compromise her memory, her speech.

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She wouldn't be able
to practice medicine.

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- I've performed this hundreds of times.
- On cancer patients?

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- No, but it's...
- If you do it, I could lose my memory?

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It's unlikely, but it's possible.

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And if you don't do
the surgery...

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We could shrink
the tumor with IL2.

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- If the tumor doesn't kill me first.
- Why take the chance?

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- Have you done a Wada test?
- Putting her brain to sleep

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and asking her to remember flash cards
is not an accurate...

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But it would tell us whether or not
she could function after.

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- As her physician...
- I'll do it. It's unnecessary.

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- The surgery is unnecessary.
- She's having hallucinations.

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Nice ring.

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Alex outdid himself.

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We're gonna have beautiful kids,
don't you think?

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- Is four too many?
- Four is perfect.

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Ideally, it would be
two boys and two girls.

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One of which
will definitely be a tomboy.

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And I should have them close together,
though that might be stupid.

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- Why wait?
- Exactly.

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That way, if I'm not able
to practice medicine anymore...

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- You won't want to.
- You don't think?

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- Do you?
- I'm asking you.

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Why do you keep agreeing
with everything I say?

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Because I am you. I'm your tumor.

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You're talking to yourself.

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- Right.
- At least until you have surgery.

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If you have surgery.
Are you gonna have surgery?

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If Derek cuts the tumor out,
I could lose my memory.

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And if he doesn't, I could die.
I don't know what to do.

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- Alex, tell me what to do.
- I can't tell you what to do.

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Of course. You're my husband. That's
what husbands do. They stomp around

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telling their wives what to do.
It's your job.

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- My job is to support you.
- I don't know what I want to do.

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That's why I'm asking you.

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OK, I have an idea.
Let's put it to a vote.

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- All in favor of the surgery.
- We're not voting. No one's voting.

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- Opposed?
- I'm opposed.

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- To voting.
- Just decide for me. Please?

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You don't have to know right now.
Think about it.

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I don't have time.

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Captain Mason told me you saved his life
four times in the field.

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A couple in the canteen,
but don't tell Mace I told you that.

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So you think I'll get to go back?

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Are you sure you want to? I mean,
why do you want to cut off your leg

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just to go back to the war?
Don't you have family?

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You know what it's like to have family
who don't know you, don't get you,

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- maybe don't even like you?
- Yeah, actually, I have brothers.

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Me too.

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So there's that family,
the guys I grew up with,

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and we've got nothing in common.
And then there's my guys in Iraq.

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My real family.

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Whatever we got into,
we were in it together.

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But here, I'm alone. I'm nobody.

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And I've tried. I've tried fitting in
here. I've tried being a regular person.

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I've tried getting a job,
but there aren't any.

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There are a lot of things I wanted to be
in my life, things I wanted to do.

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But none of 'em's here.

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This is Alison Clark. She was
referred to me two years ago.

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- Mets in her brain, liver, kidney.
- She ended up having five surgeries

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and extensive chemo, which worked.

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But then...

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- The mets came back.
- That's when I started her IL2 therapy.

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And now, after three treatments
in as many months...

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- The mets are gone?
- The mets are gone.

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Dr. Stevens should be patient.
She should give her therapies a chance.

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As surgeons, we like to cut.
But sometimes there's a better way.

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Let me retract
that small bowel

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so you'll have better visualization.

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You know what, chief?
Thanks to Leo, you don't have to.

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- Leo?
- Leonardo. Da Vinci.

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Watch this. See?

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Five hundred and forty degrees
of wristed movement.

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- Can't do that with a laparoscope.
- Or in open surgery.

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Feels pretty good, doesn't it?

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Dr. Bailey?
Are you making lightsaber noises?

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Uh, not anymore, sir.

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You know, Dr. Chalikonda
at Cleveland Clinic is doing

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single-incision gallbladder removal
through the belly button.

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We can try that on the next one.

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- If you're up to it.
- Don't tease me, sir.

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I'm not. Why should Dr. Chalikonda
have all the fun?

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It's impressive, but it took
two years to get these results.

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- These were three months apart.
- Izzie may not have three months.

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That tumor could start bleeding
in three days. Or three seconds.

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- Since when are you not about cutting?
- It may not be in the best interest.

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Derek's not acting
in Izzie's best interests?

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They're ready for us in radiology.

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- OK, Iz, I'm going to show you...
- ...a series of images you want me

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to try to remember once Derek puts
the right side of my brain to sleep.

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Mm-hm.

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- Hit me. Show me what you got.
- OK.

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Is that a schnauzer or a Scottie?
How specific do I need to be?

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Dog is fine.

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- It's either a 727 or a 747.
- Plane.

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- Ooh. A two-story Victorian mansion.
- We would also accept the word house.

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Schnauzer, 747, mansion,
schnauzer, 747, mansion.

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Or dog, plane, house.

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I'm putting the right hemisphere
of your brain to sleep now, OK?

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Dog, plane, house,
dog, plane, house...

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Dog, plane, house, dog, plane, house...

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Dog, plane, house, dog, plane, house,
dog, plane, house...

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OK. And now we wait for the
brain activity in that area to stop.

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Dog, plane, house, dog, plane...

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OK, Iz, are you gonna tell me
what you saw?

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Show her the cards.

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What's this?

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Dog. Can you say "dog"?

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- What's my name?
- Just stick to the cards, Meredith.

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Meredith.

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You know my name.
You can say my name.

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- This is what I was afraid of.
- OK. Who's Alex?

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Iz, you don't have to speak.
Just nod your head for me

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if you know who Alex Karev is.

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The test impaired your memory to such
a degree that I strongly recommend

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you don't have the surgery.

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Izzie, it was
the worst-case scenario.

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- It has nothing to do with the surgery.
- We don't know that.

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I do know that not operating
is every bit as risky, if not more so.

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But it's up to you.

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- What do you think?
- I think he's talking to you, not me.

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- I'll leave you two alone to discuss.
- I'll come with you.

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- I have a couple of questions.
- Alex.

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Think about what you want to do
for a second, OK? I'll be right back.

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You are not having the surgery.

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I need you to not talk medicine to me.
Talk to me like I'm your friend,

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like I'm the guy whose cereal you eat
in the morning, and tell me what to do.

225
00:15:45,878 --> 00:15:47,038
- Karev...
- Please.

226
00:15:47,079 --> 00:15:50,480
- Karev, I can't tell you what to do.
- What if it was Meredith?

227
00:15:51,450 --> 00:15:54,317
What would you do if you had to choose

228
00:15:54,353 --> 00:15:58,949
between spending a few more months
with Meredith knowing she was gonna die,

229
00:15:58,991 --> 00:16:01,824
watching her hurt, watching her sick...

230
00:16:02,928 --> 00:16:06,591
...or spending the rest of your life
with someone who looked like Meredith,

231
00:16:06,632 --> 00:16:07,792
but wasn't her anymore.

232
00:16:08,934 --> 00:16:12,597
She's the one good thing that ever
happened to me. The one good thing.

233
00:16:13,339 --> 00:16:16,433
So I need to know what to do.
I need you to tell me,

234
00:16:16,475 --> 00:16:18,306
what if it was Meredith?

235
00:16:21,347 --> 00:16:23,713
I would ask her to have the surgery.

236
00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:31,986
You couldn't remember
anything. You didn't know my name.

237
00:16:32,024 --> 00:16:35,824
You didn't know who Derek was,
you didn't know who Alex was.

238
00:16:35,861 --> 00:16:39,319
- You couldn't remember how to speak.
- Why don't I remember this?

239
00:16:39,365 --> 00:16:42,960
The tumor is sitting right in the middle
of everything that makes you you.

240
00:16:43,836 --> 00:16:48,500
I was standing there talking to you
exactly like I am now,

241
00:16:48,540 --> 00:16:53,000
only you weren't there.
You weren't you.

242
00:16:53,045 --> 00:16:54,979
You were gone.

243
00:16:56,248 --> 00:16:59,581
- So what do I do?
- Swender has a patient,

244
00:16:59,618 --> 00:17:03,247
female, 22 years old,
metastatic melanoma.

245
00:17:03,288 --> 00:17:06,052
- Alison Clark?
- After three months of IL2,

246
00:17:06,091 --> 00:17:08,252
her mets were gone. All of them.

247
00:17:10,229 --> 00:17:12,424
You're not having this surgery.

248
00:17:15,267 --> 00:17:18,828
Don't do it. That's my vote.

249
00:17:18,871 --> 00:17:23,308
Don't have the surgery. I didn't.
I freakin' hate surgery.

250
00:17:25,277 --> 00:17:28,474
I'm hallucinating, Alison.

251
00:17:28,514 --> 00:17:31,005
I have really long conversations
with dead people,

252
00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:33,245
and I see things that aren't...

253
00:17:34,319 --> 00:17:39,951
Right now, I'm pretty certain there
aren't birds flying over your head,

254
00:17:39,992 --> 00:17:42,688
because this is a hospital
and that would be weird,

255
00:17:42,728 --> 00:17:46,562
but that's what I'm seeing.
I have a brain tumor.

256
00:17:46,598 --> 00:17:49,066
Am I really not gonna
let them cut it out?

257
00:17:49,101 --> 00:17:51,831
I didn't let them cut out mine.

258
00:17:51,870 --> 00:17:56,466
It's like, OK,
one minute I'm this college kid,

259
00:17:56,508 --> 00:18:00,535
rowing crew and being an idiot
and forgetting my sunscreen

260
00:18:00,579 --> 00:18:03,548
and thinking it doesn't matter
because I'm me,

261
00:18:03,582 --> 00:18:06,380
and life has worked out
pretty well for me.

262
00:18:06,418 --> 00:18:10,718
And then, the next minute they're
cutting into my body every other week.

263
00:18:12,024 --> 00:18:14,185
I had 15 surgeries.

264
00:18:15,094 --> 00:18:18,188
And then I said enough.

265
00:18:18,997 --> 00:18:23,457
Forget it.
I'll row crew in heaven, or whatever.

266
00:18:24,736 --> 00:18:29,639
And then the IL2 worked. It worked.

267
00:18:29,675 --> 00:18:34,476
I come here every three weeks,
I get my medicine, and...

268
00:18:34,980 --> 00:18:37,414
...I don't have a brain tumor anymore.

269
00:18:42,421 --> 00:18:45,788
Charlie, if we admit you,
if we do what you're asking us to do,

270
00:18:45,824 --> 00:18:50,158
the pain in your leg, there's no way
of knowing if amputation will cure it.

271
00:18:50,195 --> 00:18:52,095
- But it might.
- Yes, it might.

272
00:18:52,131 --> 00:18:55,032
- And once I get the prosthetic...
- It will be months

273
00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:57,592
before I can even begin
fitting you with a prosthetic.

274
00:18:57,636 --> 00:19:00,070
Which won't feel anything
like a new leg, by the way.

275
00:19:00,105 --> 00:19:03,165
It'll feel like five pounds
of metal that hurts and pinches.

276
00:19:03,208 --> 00:19:06,302
And what if the Army says no,
what if they don't take you back?

277
00:19:06,345 --> 00:19:09,371
- They will. Chances are...
- You really want to take that chance?

278
00:19:09,414 --> 00:19:12,474
You're asking me
to remove one of your limbs.

279
00:19:12,518 --> 00:19:15,976
You think I don't know that, you think
I want to cut my leg off? Of course not.

280
00:19:16,021 --> 00:19:20,321
Am I sure about this? No. The only thing
I'm sure about is I'm in hell right now.

281
00:19:20,359 --> 00:19:22,384
That I'm sure of.

282
00:19:23,295 --> 00:19:27,129
I've lost everything. Everything I've
worked for, everything I care about,

283
00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:30,693
and I traded it in for a six-times-a-day
pain pill habit that doesn't work.

284
00:19:30,736 --> 00:19:36,231
So don't waste both our time trying to
scare me, because you don't scare me.

285
00:19:36,275 --> 00:19:39,540
After everything I've been through,
nothing scares me.

286
00:19:43,382 --> 00:19:45,373
So are we gonna do this or not?

287
00:19:50,355 --> 00:19:54,587
Dr. Robbins, Dr. Bailey
just performed Seattle Grace's

288
00:19:54,626 --> 00:19:57,026
first single-incision
gallbladder removal.

289
00:19:57,062 --> 00:20:00,225
- Oh, wow! Cool!
- Through the patient's belly button.

290
00:20:00,265 --> 00:20:03,598
- And now it's kind of creepy.
- No, you should've seen it.

291
00:20:03,635 --> 00:20:06,103
No scars, no bleeding,
and about half the time

292
00:20:06,138 --> 00:20:09,437
- it would've taken laparascopically.
- You want to do one after lunch?

293
00:20:09,474 --> 00:20:11,567
- I've got another colon.
- You don't mind?

294
00:20:11,610 --> 00:20:15,740
Oh... So I guess I'm on my own
for this afternoon?

295
00:20:15,781 --> 00:20:19,239
My neuroblastoma?
No, don't worry. You don't have to.

296
00:20:19,284 --> 00:20:22,481
You'll have the rest of your life
to do neuroblastomas.

297
00:20:22,521 --> 00:20:25,388
- Then I'll see you after lunch, sir.
- OK.

298
00:20:27,292 --> 00:20:30,489
- Chief?
- Yes, Dr. Robbins?

299
00:20:33,265 --> 00:20:37,292
- Chief...
- Did you want to tell me something?

300
00:20:37,336 --> 00:20:42,774
I am going to cry. I just want you to
know that I know it's going to happen,

301
00:20:42,808 --> 00:20:45,470
and I just want you to ignore it.

302
00:20:45,510 --> 00:20:49,344
And I'm not crying because I'm upset.
It's just what happens when I get mad

303
00:20:49,381 --> 00:20:51,611
- at people of authority.
- You're mad at me?

304
00:20:52,918 --> 00:20:56,979
I am mad at you. And I'm crying
because you're the boss, my boss,

305
00:20:57,022 --> 00:21:00,480
which brings up issues with authority
and my dad, who you remind me of.

306
00:21:00,525 --> 00:21:03,619
Not that you're old. But you
command respect. People respect you.

307
00:21:03,662 --> 00:21:07,063
I mean, I know I do. I know Bailey does.
Which is why I am mad.

308
00:21:07,099 --> 00:21:10,967
Because it's wrong, sir,
it's wrong and mean

309
00:21:11,003 --> 00:21:14,700
to use a robot to lure Bailey back to
general surgery. I don't have a robot.

310
00:21:14,740 --> 00:21:18,676
All I have are little kids.
They're not as fun as a robot.

311
00:21:18,710 --> 00:21:22,168
And they're not shiny
and new and silver,

312
00:21:22,214 --> 00:21:25,672
and they don't have things coming out
of their belly buttons but...

313
00:21:25,717 --> 00:21:28,311
I will fight you. And I will win.

314
00:21:28,887 --> 00:21:33,187
- Sir.
- You think you can fight me and win?

315
00:21:34,626 --> 00:21:39,120
- Yes.
- Good luck.

316
00:21:40,132 --> 00:21:45,001
Because I have something you don't have.
I have joy! Sir.

317
00:21:49,308 --> 00:21:53,301
<i>Dr. Toretto, pathology.</i>
<i>Dr. Toretto, pathology.</i>

318
00:21:55,247 --> 00:21:58,876
- What's going on?
- We're going over Izzie's IL2 schedule.

319
00:21:58,917 --> 00:22:00,179
Oh, for after the surgery?

320
00:22:06,558 --> 00:22:08,651
I decided not to have the surgery.

321
00:22:09,728 --> 00:22:13,323
- What?
- Maybe we should come back.

322
00:22:13,365 --> 00:22:14,559
Dr. Yang.

323
00:22:19,404 --> 00:22:21,167
- You're having the surgery.
- What?

324
00:22:21,206 --> 00:22:23,674
- Shepherd said this is your last shot.
- But I just...

325
00:22:23,709 --> 00:22:26,701
I am your husband,
I say that you are having the surgery!

326
00:22:27,346 --> 00:22:29,576
What happened to,
"This is your decision..."

327
00:22:29,614 --> 00:22:32,276
That was when I thought
you were gonna make the right one!

328
00:22:32,317 --> 00:22:36,014
You chose wrong, so you don't make this
decision on your own, you married me!

329
00:22:36,455 --> 00:22:39,822
It's not just your life at stake
anymore! It's my life, too!

330
00:22:39,858 --> 00:22:41,382
My life with you!

331
00:22:42,761 --> 00:22:46,720
You can tell Swender whatever you want,
but I'm telling Shepherd, and you,

332
00:22:46,765 --> 00:22:48,960
you are having the surgery!

333
00:23:05,617 --> 00:23:08,984
She's your friend, but that
doesn't give the right to talk her out

334
00:23:09,020 --> 00:23:12,183
of a surgery you know nothing about.
You're Swender's resident.

335
00:23:12,224 --> 00:23:15,819
What you did was inappropriate, it is
unprofessional. You crossed a line!

336
00:23:15,861 --> 00:23:19,854
No, she didn't. I did. I'm the one who
convinced Izzie not to have surgery.

337
00:23:19,898 --> 00:23:21,957
I'm the one you should be
yelling at right now.

338
00:23:26,438 --> 00:23:28,838
Well, I'm gonna go now.

339
00:23:30,142 --> 00:23:33,634
Unless you wanna apologize... OK.

340
00:23:38,817 --> 00:23:42,218
My mother disappeared
right in front of me.

341
00:23:42,254 --> 00:23:45,781
Everything she had, everything she was,
her dignity, her memory.

342
00:23:45,824 --> 00:23:49,453
- In the end, she wasn't even my mother.
- Izzie is not your mother.

343
00:23:49,494 --> 00:23:53,225
She doesn't have an untreatable
brain condition. She has a tumor.

344
00:23:53,265 --> 00:23:56,257
And it can be treated.
Don't make this personal.

345
00:23:56,301 --> 00:23:59,099
- I wasn't.
- You went to Izzie, as her friend,

346
00:23:59,137 --> 00:24:03,039
and you made up her mind for her. As my
resident, go back there and change it.

347
00:24:03,074 --> 00:24:05,838
Because this tumor will kill her.

348
00:24:10,682 --> 00:24:12,650
Quick consult, Dr. Yang?

349
00:24:15,253 --> 00:24:16,777
What are you doing?

350
00:24:19,658 --> 00:24:23,526
The reason I haven't told my mother
I'm back is part of me is still there.

351
00:24:23,562 --> 00:24:26,122
I made a commitment to the Army
I wasn't able to fulfill.

352
00:24:26,164 --> 00:24:31,796
If my unit hadn't been destroyed, I'd be
there. No wonder I can't sleep at night,

353
00:24:31,837 --> 00:24:34,829
or look my mother in the eye.
You and I can't move forward.

354
00:24:34,873 --> 00:24:39,867
My work there isn't done. And until
it is, I have no business being here.

355
00:24:42,581 --> 00:24:45,812
So... I've decided to go back.

356
00:24:47,652 --> 00:24:49,517
I have to go.

357
00:24:50,055 --> 00:24:52,990
- Cristina, come on.
- What? What am I supposed to say?

358
00:24:54,025 --> 00:24:58,792
- I could use your support.
- You don't have it.

359
00:25:06,104 --> 00:25:10,370
Dr. Torres? Dr. O'Malley?

360
00:25:10,408 --> 00:25:13,400
I just wanted to apologize.

361
00:25:13,445 --> 00:25:15,140
- It's OK.
- You don't have to.

362
00:25:15,180 --> 00:25:19,913
I do. 'Cause you were trying
to do your job in there,

363
00:25:19,951 --> 00:25:23,717
your job is to put people back together,
not take 'em apart. I get that.

364
00:25:25,457 --> 00:25:28,722
I know it doesn't make sense to you
that I want to go back to a place

365
00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:30,591
where people get hurt and die,

366
00:25:30,629 --> 00:25:34,531
but we're there
because we're trying to help people.

367
00:25:34,566 --> 00:25:38,696
Save people. The same as you.
It's my job. It's who I am. It's...

368
00:25:40,605 --> 00:25:44,507
If something happened and suddenly
you couldn't be a doctor anymore,

369
00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:47,376
if someone told you
you couldn't do it anymore,

370
00:25:47,412 --> 00:25:51,246
wouldn't you wanna do everything you
could possibly do to be a doctor again?

371
00:25:56,488 --> 00:26:01,255
We haven't been married 24
hours, and we've had our first fight.

372
00:26:01,293 --> 00:26:05,286
That's a good sign.
Fighting leads to good make-up sex.

373
00:26:07,999 --> 00:26:11,059
Are you watching birds fly
around my head again?

374
00:26:11,102 --> 00:26:13,536
Am I, like,
totally Snow White right now?

375
00:26:15,507 --> 00:26:19,238
- I just don't want to hurt him.
- He'll come around.

376
00:26:19,277 --> 00:26:22,906
It might take a while,
but once that tumor disappears,

377
00:26:22,948 --> 00:26:27,282
once you're back at work cutting open
other people, he'll come around.

378
00:26:31,022 --> 00:26:33,252
Is it hummingbirds at least?

379
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,394
I really like hummingbirds.

380
00:26:42,767 --> 00:26:45,565
- We need to talk to Izzie.
- We are not talking Izzie

381
00:26:45,604 --> 00:26:48,664
into having surgery because
your future husband is mad at you.

382
00:26:48,707 --> 00:26:52,143
He has a right to be mad. We didn't talk
Izzie out of the surgery as doctors,

383
00:26:52,177 --> 00:26:56,011
- we did it as her friends.
- Our job as doctors is to present the

384
00:26:56,047 --> 00:26:59,778
options, answer questions and let the
patient decide the course of treatment.

385
00:26:59,818 --> 00:27:03,413
- That's what we did.
- Right. Except I may have

386
00:27:03,455 --> 00:27:07,858
presented her options as, "You're
having this surgery over my dead body."

387
00:27:11,062 --> 00:27:14,361
He has a right to be mad.

388
00:27:14,399 --> 00:27:16,060
- Crap.
- Who is it?

389
00:27:16,101 --> 00:27:17,261
Come on.

390
00:27:19,137 --> 00:27:20,798
- Izzie, what...?
- What happened?

391
00:27:20,839 --> 00:27:23,467
- I don't know. Where's Swender!
- Izzie, let me take over.

392
00:27:23,508 --> 00:27:25,476
Yeah, Izzie, come sit down.

393
00:27:37,188 --> 00:27:39,520
The vessels
and nerves are separated.

394
00:27:39,557 --> 00:27:40,990
Skin flap is done.

395
00:27:41,026 --> 00:27:45,554
Remind me again why I'm doing this.
Someone remind me again.

396
00:27:49,367 --> 00:27:53,804
You don't know what's gonna happen to
this kid, how many fights he could win,

397
00:27:53,838 --> 00:27:56,739
how many lives he could save.

398
00:27:58,376 --> 00:28:02,870
If you don't do this,
he's never gonna get the chance.

399
00:28:02,914 --> 00:28:07,010
We're not doing harm. We're not
hurting him. We're saving him.

400
00:28:07,052 --> 00:28:08,747
We're doing what he wants.

401
00:28:10,855 --> 00:28:12,618
It's what he wants.

402
00:28:38,049 --> 00:28:40,347
- BP's still dropping.
- We need more blood.

403
00:28:40,385 --> 00:28:42,910
- We need to move faster.
- I'm done. I'm at the end.

404
00:28:42,954 --> 00:28:46,583
- I didn't see any bowel perforation.
- It's there somewhere. Run it again.

405
00:28:46,624 --> 00:28:48,489
- Dr...
- Run it again.

406
00:28:50,562 --> 00:28:52,257
Yes, ma'am.

407
00:28:53,631 --> 00:28:55,326
So much for IL2.

408
00:28:57,168 --> 00:28:58,897
You think this is my fault?

409
00:28:59,871 --> 00:29:03,432
- You think I did this to her?
- No, ma'am.

410
00:29:03,475 --> 00:29:08,572
There is no cure for cancer, Dr. Yang.
There's only us, the two of us,

411
00:29:08,613 --> 00:29:12,549
right here, fighting this thing
as aggressively as we know how.

412
00:29:12,584 --> 00:29:16,486
And sometimes that means pumping toxins
into the patient to kill the cancer.

413
00:29:16,521 --> 00:29:22,153
And, yes, sometimes, not very often,
those toxins kill the patient as well.

414
00:29:23,228 --> 00:29:26,459
But Alison had three months to live
when she first came to see me,

415
00:29:26,498 --> 00:29:29,058
and I have managed
to keep her alive for two years.

416
00:29:29,968 --> 00:29:34,996
So I am not about to give up on her,
or the IL2, anytime soon,

417
00:29:35,039 --> 00:29:36,700
and neither are you.

418
00:29:45,283 --> 00:29:50,277
I wasn't asking you to see the condo.
I was asking you to move in with me.

419
00:29:52,123 --> 00:29:54,751
If that's what you want.

420
00:29:56,427 --> 00:29:58,395
- I do.
- You do?

421
00:29:58,429 --> 00:30:02,695
- Yeah. Not right away.
- No, of course not. In like...

422
00:30:02,734 --> 00:30:05,225
- ...a year. I'm sorry, what, now?
- Ten years. Oh.

423
00:30:05,270 --> 00:30:09,673
Well, because I'll still be a resident
for, like, six more years,

424
00:30:09,707 --> 00:30:12,972
and then I'd want to get
my practice up and running, so...

425
00:30:13,611 --> 00:30:15,875
- How about seven?
- How about five years?

426
00:30:15,914 --> 00:30:19,441
- I'll still be a resident.
- So? Stevens and Karev are residents.

427
00:30:19,484 --> 00:30:23,545
Meredith's a resident. Bailey's a
resident. All married, or soon to be.

428
00:30:23,588 --> 00:30:25,920
And happily. Or whatever.

429
00:30:27,692 --> 00:30:32,220
I'm sorry, are you asking me
to marry you?

430
00:30:32,263 --> 00:30:34,754
No!

431
00:30:35,333 --> 00:30:36,891
- Why? Would you?
- Um...

432
00:30:36,935 --> 00:30:40,063
- Should we be having this conversation?
- No, probably not.

433
00:30:40,104 --> 00:30:41,833
OK...

434
00:30:41,873 --> 00:30:45,809
- Impressive work today, Dr. Bailey.
- Thank you, sir. It was fun.

435
00:30:45,844 --> 00:30:48,608
Yeah, it was, wasn't it?

436
00:30:56,354 --> 00:31:01,485
- Sounds like you guys had a good day.
- How'd the neuroblastoma kid do?

437
00:31:01,526 --> 00:31:05,018
Oh. He was awesome. The surgery was
easy, he gonna make a full recovery.

438
00:31:05,063 --> 00:31:06,928
That's kinda why I wanted you there.

439
00:31:06,965 --> 00:31:10,765
Because the kids you can save
almost make up for the ones you can't.

440
00:31:10,802 --> 00:31:13,396
Anyways, I'm gonna go monitor
him at post-op,

441
00:31:13,438 --> 00:31:17,875
and then I'll tell his family the
good news. Stop by, come see the joy.

442
00:31:18,176 --> 00:31:20,144
OK.

443
00:31:45,203 --> 00:31:50,266
We had to resect
part of her bowel.

444
00:31:50,308 --> 00:31:53,300
Unfortunately, we weren't
able to finish the surgery

445
00:31:53,344 --> 00:31:55,278
because she was too unstable.

446
00:31:56,347 --> 00:32:00,613
Right now, she's on a ventilator
because she can't breathe on her own.

447
00:32:02,954 --> 00:32:05,479
But you'll be able
to finish the surgery, right?

448
00:32:07,659 --> 00:32:10,321
Yes, if she stabilizes.

449
00:32:10,361 --> 00:32:12,921
And then she'll be able
to breathe on her own again?

450
00:32:20,071 --> 00:32:23,768
Your daughter's heart stopped
during the surgery,

451
00:32:23,808 --> 00:32:26,276
which means her brain
wasn't getting oxygen.

452
00:32:29,147 --> 00:32:32,241
So it's unlikely she'll
be able to come off a ventilator.

453
00:33:15,193 --> 00:33:16,353
Izzie?

454
00:33:17,362 --> 00:33:20,331
Izzie. Izzie.

455
00:33:21,399 --> 00:33:23,663
- You're paging me. Are you OK?
- No.

456
00:33:23,701 --> 00:33:26,829
I don't know what to do.

457
00:33:26,871 --> 00:33:30,432
I don't know if I should have
the surgery. I'm gonna die either way.

458
00:33:30,475 --> 00:33:31,999
You gotta tell me what to do.

459
00:33:33,077 --> 00:33:35,671
- You know what to do.
- No, I don't.

460
00:33:37,348 --> 00:33:40,613
- I don't.
- Yes, you do.

461
00:33:41,386 --> 00:33:45,755
You're just scared to do it.
All this back and forth, it's just fear.

462
00:33:46,357 --> 00:33:49,758
But... you've already made the decision.

463
00:33:51,996 --> 00:33:55,432
You made it. You made it the second
you decided to fight this thing.

464
00:33:58,436 --> 00:34:01,803
Just look... look where you started.

465
00:34:03,307 --> 00:34:05,138
Look where you are now.

466
00:34:05,977 --> 00:34:10,676
I mean, now you're this
incredible surgeon...

467
00:34:12,383 --> 00:34:14,112
...and teacher.

468
00:34:16,754 --> 00:34:19,188
You're a doer, remember?

469
00:34:26,164 --> 00:34:29,065
You know exactly what you have to do.

470
00:34:37,842 --> 00:34:40,037
Come in.

471
00:34:46,150 --> 00:34:47,777
You can do it.

472
00:34:48,352 --> 00:34:50,752
You can cut into my brain again.

473
00:34:54,025 --> 00:34:55,083
OK.

474
00:34:56,394 --> 00:35:00,455
You can do it, but I don't
want to end up a vegetable.

475
00:35:00,498 --> 00:35:02,489
- Izzie, you won't...
- No, just listen.

476
00:35:03,935 --> 00:35:07,803
I want the surgery right now.
But, if something goes wrong,

477
00:35:07,839 --> 00:35:09,830
I don't want to end up on a ventilator.

478
00:35:12,243 --> 00:35:14,302
So I'm signing a DNR.

479
00:35:26,057 --> 00:35:27,752
- Please.
- Alex...

480
00:35:27,792 --> 00:35:31,455
You went crazy. When Denny signed that
DNR, you went crazy. That what you want?

481
00:35:31,496 --> 00:35:34,590
You want me cutting LVADs? You want
to wreck my career? 'Cause I will.

482
00:35:34,632 --> 00:35:38,864
I will freakin' cut LVADs
before I let you just... Wait! Stop!

483
00:35:39,403 --> 00:35:43,066
You don't get to quit.
You don't get to quit on me.

484
00:35:43,808 --> 00:35:49,075
Please. Tear it up. The DNR. Tear it up!

485
00:35:52,183 --> 00:35:55,675
Where your eyes are supposed to be
right now,

486
00:35:55,720 --> 00:35:58,086
I see white, sandy beaches.

487
00:35:59,357 --> 00:36:04,021
And there's an ocean behind your head
and ghosts wandering in and out.

488
00:36:05,563 --> 00:36:07,827
I can't live like this.

489
00:36:07,865 --> 00:36:10,026
And I can't live...

490
00:36:12,737 --> 00:36:17,140
If something goes wrong in that surgery,
I don't want any extraordinary measures

491
00:36:17,175 --> 00:36:21,703
taken to keep me alive.
It's not what I want.

492
00:36:21,746 --> 00:36:26,740
I went crazy when Denny signed the DNR
because I didn't understand.

493
00:36:26,784 --> 00:36:29,082
I didn't understand, but now I do.

494
00:36:29,120 --> 00:36:32,351
And I need you to understand.

495
00:36:33,357 --> 00:36:37,521
I don't want you to go crazy.
I want you to have a brilliant career.

496
00:36:37,562 --> 00:36:40,793
And I hope I get to be here for it.
But if I can't,

497
00:36:40,831 --> 00:36:43,823
I just want to go to the other side.

498
00:36:43,868 --> 00:36:46,701
I don't know what's there,
but it's gotta be better

499
00:36:46,737 --> 00:36:50,332
than hospital beds
and tubes down my throat. So please.

500
00:36:50,374 --> 00:36:54,037
Please don't cut LVADs.

501
00:36:54,078 --> 00:36:55,943
Just...

502
00:36:57,114 --> 00:37:01,414
...if it comes down to it,

503
00:37:01,452 --> 00:37:03,215
just let me go.

504
00:37:12,530 --> 00:37:14,794
And right now, kiss me.

505
00:37:15,199 --> 00:37:17,963
Please just kiss me and close your eyes,

506
00:37:18,002 --> 00:37:20,402
because the beach is so distracting.

507
00:37:44,662 --> 00:37:46,755
I always thought it would be me.

508
00:37:48,532 --> 00:37:51,626
I'd get Alzheimer's, like my mother,
and forget everyone.

509
00:37:57,875 --> 00:37:59,843
Let's go to city hall tomorrow.

510
00:38:01,679 --> 00:38:04,944
I don't want to spend another day
not being married to you.

511
00:38:06,517 --> 00:38:08,280
OK.

512
00:38:30,107 --> 00:38:32,632
It doesn't matter how good you are.

513
00:38:33,477 --> 00:38:35,138
Or how hard you work.

514
00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:37,614
You can do all the research,

515
00:38:37,648 --> 00:38:41,049
you can master
all the latest techniques,

516
00:38:41,085 --> 00:38:45,021
I mean, you can be the best... you can
be the best surgeon in the world...

517
00:38:46,824 --> 00:38:49,292
...but your patients
are still gonna die.

518
00:38:52,263 --> 00:38:57,098
Because the next day
or the next month or the next year,

519
00:38:57,134 --> 00:39:02,504
you know, they're just gonna get hit
by a car or find a mole on their back.

520
00:39:06,310 --> 00:39:08,676
And there's nothing you can do about it.

521
00:39:12,516 --> 00:39:14,882
I don't want you to die.

522
00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:30,726
You OK?

523
00:39:33,771 --> 00:39:35,739
I cut off a healthy leg.

524
00:39:36,273 --> 00:39:38,264
I just cut it off.

525
00:39:39,110 --> 00:39:43,012
It was for the patient's own good.
But still, I feel like a butcher.

526
00:39:43,047 --> 00:39:48,110
My miracle case is on life support.
I thought I had one.

527
00:39:49,186 --> 00:39:53,054
One miracle.

528
00:39:53,090 --> 00:39:57,117
I hate this job sometimes.

529
00:39:58,129 --> 00:39:59,994
I don't know why we do this.

530
00:40:02,666 --> 00:40:05,100
Come on. Come with me.

531
00:40:13,444 --> 00:40:15,469
OK. What are we doing here?

532
00:40:16,680 --> 00:40:18,375
We came to see that.

533
00:40:18,416 --> 00:40:22,284
- What?
- The joy.

534
00:40:23,721 --> 00:40:29,250
It comes around rarely.
So rarely, we forget it can happen.

535
00:40:30,995 --> 00:40:34,863
But that... That's why we do this.

536
00:40:35,266 --> 00:40:37,029
The joy.

537
00:40:49,613 --> 00:40:54,050
<i>We spend our whole lives</i>
<i>worrying about the future,</i>

538
00:40:54,084 --> 00:40:57,747
<i>planning for the future,</i>

539
00:40:57,788 --> 00:41:00,552
<i>trying to predict the future.</i>

540
00:41:00,925 --> 00:41:02,654
Will you come with me?

541
00:41:08,866 --> 00:41:12,302
<i>As if figuring it out</i>
<i>will somehow cushion the blow.</i>

542
00:41:13,838 --> 00:41:16,432
<i>But the future is always changing.</i>

543
00:41:17,575 --> 00:41:21,909
We've got one more. He's a doctor.
He says he needs to do it today.

544
00:41:29,086 --> 00:41:30,610
Come in.

545
00:41:30,654 --> 00:41:33,384
<i>The future is the home</i>
<i>of our deepest fears...</i>

546
00:41:37,328 --> 00:41:38,852
Owen?

547
00:41:40,431 --> 00:41:42,262
Hey, Mom.

548
00:41:45,636 --> 00:41:47,194
I'm home.

549
00:41:49,406 --> 00:41:51,397
<i>...and our wildest hopes.</i>

550
00:42:00,117 --> 00:42:02,312
<i>But one thing is certain:</i>

551
00:42:03,721 --> 00:42:06,189
<i>When it finally reveals itself...</i>

552
00:42:06,223 --> 00:42:09,989
Congratulations, doctor.
Welcome to the Army.

553
00:42:10,027 --> 00:42:12,427
- <i>...the future...</i>
- Thank you.

554
00:42:12,463 --> 00:42:14,829
<i>...is never</i>
<i>the way we imagined it.</i>
