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<i>Surgeons aren't</i>
<i>known for being warm and cuddly.</i>

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<i>They're arrogant, impatient,</i>

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- <i>mean, as often as not.</i>
- Go with straight-up chemo

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and immunotherapy. Survival rates are
low, but there's been a lot of success

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with mestastasectomies.
We could probably cut this thing out.

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<i>You'd think they wouldn't have friends.</i>
<i>Who could stand them?</i>

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- What are you hiding?
- Nothing. It's just work stuff.

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- What is that? A cool surgery?
- No, it's nothing. It's nothing.

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Whatever it is, they'll pick me. I flew
solo. You're still on training wheels.

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- Sure you still don't wanna tell him?
- Yes, I'm sure.

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OK. Look, I researched a ton
of information. Read all of this

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- before you see the oncologist.
- When?

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I called Dr. Golding.
He gave me a referral to Swender.

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- I'm gonna try and get you in today.
- Shh!

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What are you doing here?
I told you I was fine.

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- You are so not fine.
- I'd be fine if I knew Derek was fine.

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You still haven't heard from him?
No word?

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Izzie, don't you think
you should call in sick today?

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- What? Why?
- Because this is a lot of reading,

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- and you're sick.
- You coming? Big surgery today.

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- Yeah.
- Yeah. Izzie, just...

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<i>But surgeons are like a bad cold:</i>

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<i>Nasty, but persistent.</i>

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- Uh, Chief, I need to ask you about...
- Sloan, have you heard from Derek?

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No.

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I'm sorry. You were saying?
Oh, Meredith.

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No, I don't know how he is. I've heard
nothing. Nothing today, nothing

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yesterday, nothing the day before.
And no, I will not go back out there.

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Hey, who moved my surgery?
Chief? Chief?

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Don't. Just don't. He's a wreck.
He's disintegrating before our eyes.

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- That's why men die earlier than women.
- Mm. The board's a mess.

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He can't lose Shepherd.
I'd go talk some sense into him,

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- but I've got too much on my plate.
- Tried calling?

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About 100 times.

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Mm.

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No. Oh, you...

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You want me to go to the woods?
No. I don't do woods.

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The woods are dirty
and there are many, many bugs.

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What am I gonna say? I barely know him.

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You don't have to know him. You're
surgeons, been through the same war.

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Just remind him we've all been there,
we all came back.

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You're kind of a bully, you know that?

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I wouldn't do it
if it didn't work so well.

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This is one of the biggest surgeries
you may get near so pay attention.

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The patient is a 38-year-old male
hit by a drunk driver 12 years ago.

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- He suffered severe facial trauma.
- No nose, no lips.

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That's why we dubbed him Blowhole.
He's had nine reconstructive surgeries,

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none of which have brought back
full form or function.

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This surgery
has only been done four times.

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All candidates have to undergo
extensive psychological testing

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to determine whether
they can handle the process.

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Psychological components aside, this has
a chance of rejection or infection.

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He'll be on life-long anti-rejection
drugs which put him at risk

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for lymphoma, diabetes,
hypertension, renal failure.

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- I hear they call the dude Blowhole.
- What did you just say?

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Nothing. I just heard he had a nickname.

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Don't talk anymore. Ever.

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- Holy crap! Blowhole is right.
- What'd I tell you?

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<i>nasty, aggressive, unstoppable.</i>

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<i>Just the kind of people you want</i>
<i>on your side when you're really screwed.</i>

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Ladies and gentlemen,
this is Mr. David Young.

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Today he'll be receiving
a face transplant.

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Dr. Hunt and his team'll be
recovering the donor graft.

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We're replacing 70 percent
of Mr. Young's face.

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- You can see the deficit here.
- Or here.

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The donor recovery will include
his nose, left eye, lips, left zygoma.

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Why will allotransplantation work
better than traditional techniques?

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Aesthetic outcome allows re-enervation
of nerves, giving a better result.

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Very good, Dr. Grey.

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We'll position the flap
over Mr. Young's face.

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- How do we know we're clear?
- The graft turns pink.

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Excellent.

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- Dave, any questions for us?
- Has anyone seen the donor?

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Yes, he's a match with your age,
skin tone and blood type.

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- What does he look like?
- I think you'll be satisfied.

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Who am I kidding?
It's a face, right?

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If I end up anything above
a point and stare freak,

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I'm gonna call it a success.

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Karev, you're with me and the donor.
Usually we take them at the same time,

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but donor's life support is fading.
Move.

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- Thank you, sir.
- Stevens, Grey.

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- Yes.
- No, the other Grey.

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- Really? Great.
- Great.

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You did an awesome job in there.

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- Call me after the pre-op labs come in.
- Dr. Sloan, only one resident?

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Wait for Bailey.
There's enough of a crowd.

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- What the hell?
- Izzie, I don't think you have time

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- to scrub in.
- Don't worry. I can handle it.

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- Awesome job.
- She probably quizzed him in bed.

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- She gets to work on Blowhole...
- Shut your mouths!

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Finish the chart. I'll be back.

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O'Malley, Grey?
I need you on pre-ops and post-ops.

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There's the biggest surgery
in the world happening.

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Yes. Half our attendings are involved,
which is why we need strong residents

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on pre-ops and post-ops.
Yang, you're with me.

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- Moving to the big leagues.
- What?

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- She gets a solo?
- Today?

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Nice old lady with a hernia,
you're gonna fix it.

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Congratulations.
I know I should seem more enthusiastic,

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- but I'm not that big a person.
- Don't worry about it.

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Is it wrong to have hatred
in your heart?

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Good morning, Miss Sulley.
I'm Dr. Cristina Yang.

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- I'll perform your hernia repair.
- Lovely to meet you.

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- Have any questions before we start?
- Yes. Hand me my purse.

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My friends gave me a bunch of questions,
and I can't remember any of them.

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They're such worrywarts. They're all
off on a European tour without me.

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They threatened not to go when this
became a problem. I told 'em no.

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No. We have been saving up for this
for two years.

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I was able to get my deposit back
with a doctor's note.

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Cristina Yang. Yes?

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No. No, it has to be today.

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It's stage four. She has
to see Dr. Swender, not a partner.

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Um, I'm sorry, ma'am.

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I will get to your questions
when I come to examine you. OK?

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Referral is Golding? Golding.

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A little early in the day
for that, don't you think?

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- You sound like my mother.
- I met your mother. I liked her.

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- Who sent you, Richard?
- Uh, Bailey.

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Of course.

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I'm sorry about your patient.
I know how hard it can be.

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I had a patient a couple of years ago...

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Young guy, 50 maybe.

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Simple knee replacement.
He was post-op, he was fine.

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I told his wife she could get him lunch.
A simple knee replacement. Nothing.

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He'd been getting short of breath.
I put him on blood thinners

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for a post-surgical PE.

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And... it wasn't until he was vomiting
up dark blood, looking me in the eye,

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telling me that he was dying
that I figured it out.

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That I was wrong. It wasn't a PE.
He was bleeding internally.

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It wouldn't have been fatal,
but the blood thinners...

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God, I will never forget the look
on his wife's face

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when she came back
with that sandwich in her hand,

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asking me why her husband
wasn't in his room anymore.

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How do you live with it?

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Killing him.

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Taking him from his wife.
How do you live with it?

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- We call it malpractice...
- I know. I'm asking when you get up,

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how do you look at yourself
in the mirror?

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Look, I'm not... I'm...

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I'm asking.

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Can I get one of those?

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Yeah.

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It's the not knowing that does it.
Not knowing if he's OK,

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not knowing if he's coming back.
Maybe I've just been dumped.

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It's not knowing if I'm single
that makes me wanna throw up all day.

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- You are not listening to me, are you?
- Uh, sorry.

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No, no, that's OK. I get it.
You've got solo surgery and Gl Joe.

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It's a charmed life.
You don't have time for me.

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I have not had Gl Joe.
We've kissed a couple times.

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It's like friends with benefits...
without the benefits.

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- Still no sex.
- Mm-mmm. Not a charmed life.

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Lab results from the splenectomy.

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- Do we ask?
- No.

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'Cause he might tell us.

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Can you imagine?
This guy's got a family, right?

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Wife, kids? One day they'll see his face
on somebody else's body.

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- It's kind of creepy, right?
- Mr. Young won't look exactly

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like the donor. The underlying facial
structure of two people can be

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- very different.
- A person's identity is more than

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skin and bone.
His expression, style, eyes.

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The donor's family wouldn't recognize
this face on anyone else.

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- Transplant surgeons are antsy.
- They're always antsy.

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They can't relax until they
got live tissue in their coolers.

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I am making the final dissection.
Karev, hold right of the temple

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and gently lift. Don't tear the flesh.

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Awesome.

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Tenderness around the incision
is normal. No signs of infection.

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Could you redress that wound?

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Megan, will you please go to 20...

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Um, go to room 2214

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and just take out the drain.

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When you're ready.

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It's seems personal, we wouldn't
ask if we didn't need to know,

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but have you passed gas yet?

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Sorry.

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We can't release you
until that happens. The gas.

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I'm sorry. I'm trying to listen,
but are they supposed to look like that?

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- Like what?
- The bleeding and the shiner.

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And that one looks like she's suicidal.

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- They're supposed to be doctors?
- We're gonna reserve judgment on that.

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- Freak show.
- What the heck do we do with them?

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- Can we shove them in a locker?
- We should talk to them.

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No. We're professionals.
That's clearly personal.

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Besides, we'll waste time,
never see the solo surgery

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- or the face transplant.
- Oh, that's a good point.

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- I guess we should ignore it then.
- Yeah, just ignore it.

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- It's the professional thing to do.
- Professionally...

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It's important that you take
all the medications...

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Risk of rejection and infection.
I know. You drilled it into my head

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- a thousand times.
- Is your family here yet?

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I ask because someone needs
to take care of you afterwards.

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I don't have family, but my friends
are coming after the surgery.

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I'm excited to meet them
and show them my new face.

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We met in an online chat room
for orchid lovers.

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We've never actually "met" met, so...

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Dave, after the surgery,
this device helps prevent lung problems

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by exercising the muscles
you use to breathe.

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- I'd like you to practice on it now.
- Sit up straight.

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Take three easy breaths
and then blow into that.

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- Hole.
- That's it!

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Both of you, in the hall, now!
You really think that was OK?

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- That was doctorly?!
- Find something else to do.

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- What the hell's going on with you?
- They made inappropriate jokes

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at the expense of the patient.
Right in front of him.

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I have been trying to teach them,
and they were cruel and inappropriate.

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OK, they were inappropriate.
You know what else is inappropriate?

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This. You.

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This case is my baby.
I've spent three years planning for it,

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and you are not about to
piss all over it.

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- You're off the case.
- No. He needs me in there with him.

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- You can't leave him alone with them.
- You wanna be there for his feelings,

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you can be there before and after
the surgery,

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but you're not coming in my OR.
Whatever's going on with you,

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get it under control.

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- I found them.
- What?

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- Your questions about the surgery?
- One of my friends, Phil Ferguson,

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he's a retired surgeon.
He told me to ask you these.

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I can't seem to find my glasses.
My friends should be here.

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I put my glasses down somewhere,
they find them...

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Will you finally be able to pick up your
grandkids? A question from a doctor?

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No. No, my other friends helped me
with questions. I added a few on my own.

222
00:14:15,187 --> 00:14:17,519
Like, "Will it hurt?"

223
00:14:17,590 --> 00:14:19,717
Will it... hurt?

224
00:14:19,792 --> 00:14:23,990
- You'll be anesthetized.
- Yes, I know that.

225
00:14:24,029 --> 00:14:28,625
- I mean after. Will it hurt?
- You should expect normal post-op pain.

226
00:14:32,104 --> 00:14:37,508
Yes? Yes.
No, that is fantastic. I'll take it.

227
00:14:37,543 --> 00:14:41,570
Thank you so much.
I'll get in touch with her right away.

228
00:14:41,647 --> 00:14:43,171
2:30. Anytime is fine.

229
00:14:43,215 --> 00:14:47,675
So I've covered 22, 13, 19 and 33.

230
00:14:47,720 --> 00:14:52,384
Yeah, OK. I've got 2011 and 2007.

231
00:14:52,424 --> 00:14:55,689
Mer, there is something wrong
with Izzie.

232
00:14:55,728 --> 00:14:58,322
- What do you mean?
- I don't know.

233
00:14:58,364 --> 00:15:02,892
- I know that there is something wrong.
- We're drowning in intern drama.

234
00:15:02,968 --> 00:15:05,402
We don't need resident drama too.

235
00:15:05,471 --> 00:15:08,963
If it's a problem, she'll tell us.
Until then, just ignore it.

236
00:15:15,281 --> 00:15:16,976
I repeat, ignore it.

237
00:15:17,049 --> 00:15:19,882
- What in God's name is going on?
- A personal issue.

238
00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:22,217
We are just trying
to give them their privacy.

239
00:15:22,254 --> 00:15:26,714
Gee, you think for a second I wanted
to get involved with your intern drama?

240
00:15:26,759 --> 00:15:30,160
- We were not this bad.
- Getting married in Vegas.

241
00:15:30,195 --> 00:15:34,097
Shacking up with attendings. Cutting
LVAD wires. You don't have to like it,

242
00:15:34,166 --> 00:15:37,363
- but you have to manage it.
- We've got it under control.

243
00:15:39,972 --> 00:15:42,964
Wait! I love you, Megan!

244
00:15:44,643 --> 00:15:47,806
Sir, are you OK?
Oh, God, I'm so sorry.

245
00:15:53,052 --> 00:15:57,648
Whatever it is the two of you
have going on, it stops now.

246
00:15:57,690 --> 00:16:00,591
- I didn't mean to...
- Don't talk while she's talking.

247
00:16:00,626 --> 00:16:04,995
You are scaring the patients. You're
making this hospital look ridiculous.

248
00:16:05,064 --> 00:16:08,261
- You're making us look incompetent.
- Not a good idea.

249
00:16:08,300 --> 00:16:12,634
Just stay away from each other. So much
as a tear or a glance at each other,

250
00:16:12,671 --> 00:16:14,639
- and it's over. No!
- I don't understand.

251
00:16:14,707 --> 00:16:17,972
- Don't talk while I'm talking.
- That's what I was trying to tell...

252
00:16:19,111 --> 00:16:21,511
Now just get out! Go!

253
00:16:22,881 --> 00:16:24,576
Not together.

254
00:16:26,352 --> 00:16:27,444
That felt good.

255
00:16:27,486 --> 00:16:30,387
- You paged me, Dr. Bailey?
- Oh! Yes.

256
00:16:30,422 --> 00:16:32,856
Um, finished your part
of the face transplant?

257
00:16:32,925 --> 00:16:36,088
I cleared my schedule to watch
Sloan and Yang do surgery.

258
00:16:36,128 --> 00:16:39,097
Whatever it is you need,
I hope it's not too time-consuming.

259
00:16:39,131 --> 00:16:41,861
That all depends on
how fast you can drive and talk.

260
00:16:41,900 --> 00:16:45,836
- I'm sorry?
- I need you to drive out to the woods

261
00:16:45,904 --> 00:16:48,270
and talk Derek Shepherd
into coming back here.

262
00:16:48,307 --> 00:16:52,869
And I believe you also might run
into Callie Torres. With a flat tire.

263
00:16:52,945 --> 00:16:56,540
Or a broken heel.
Or an axe-wielding serial killer.

264
00:16:57,349 --> 00:17:00,682
- You're serious?
- I sent Torres after Shepherd,

265
00:17:00,719 --> 00:17:04,018
and she's fallen off the grid.
Her phone goes to voicemail.

266
00:17:04,089 --> 00:17:08,048
I'm normally not a panicky person,
but I'm a fan of daytime television.

267
00:17:08,093 --> 00:17:11,290
My crazy scenarios... Never mind.

268
00:17:11,330 --> 00:17:16,267
I need you to go get Torres
and Shepherd and bring them back here

269
00:17:16,301 --> 00:17:20,670
- before the chief notices you're gone.
- Shepherd's been gone all week...

270
00:17:20,739 --> 00:17:25,870
Hunt! You survived a war,
you can do this.

271
00:17:25,911 --> 00:17:28,880
I know I can do this.
I'm saying I don't want to.

272
00:17:36,455 --> 00:17:39,015
People don't really say "no" to you,
do they?

273
00:17:39,058 --> 00:17:41,288
Not when I say please.

274
00:17:42,127 --> 00:17:44,152
I'm saying please!

275
00:17:45,497 --> 00:17:47,931
OR is set, transport's on its way.

276
00:17:48,467 --> 00:17:51,402
- You ready?
- I've been ready for 12 years.

277
00:17:51,470 --> 00:17:55,065
You said you had friends coming
to take care of you?

278
00:17:55,140 --> 00:17:58,303
- Yeah, after my surgery.
- They're coming now.

279
00:17:59,978 --> 00:18:01,036
Surprise!

280
00:18:02,314 --> 00:18:04,544
Hi. It's me, Sheena.

281
00:18:04,583 --> 00:18:07,143
You can probably tell
from my Vanda roeblingiana.

282
00:18:09,021 --> 00:18:11,421
I hope you're not mad
that we came early.

283
00:18:11,457 --> 00:18:14,824
We thought we should be here
through it all. Make sure you knew...

284
00:18:14,860 --> 00:18:19,126
Get out. Get them out. They're
strangers. I don't want them in here.

285
00:18:19,198 --> 00:18:21,962
We're hardly strangers, Dave.

286
00:18:22,034 --> 00:18:24,525
We chat every night,
all night, for years.

287
00:18:25,304 --> 00:18:27,602
- We flew in...
- Get out! We've never met.

288
00:18:27,673 --> 00:18:31,074
You don't know me,
anything about me. Get out!

289
00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:33,578
Get them out! Get out. Get out!

290
00:18:33,612 --> 00:18:35,239
Get out!

291
00:18:45,858 --> 00:18:48,554
Hey. Did you get my page?
I got the appointment.

292
00:18:48,594 --> 00:18:51,927
It's in, like, 15 minutes.
How amazing am I?

293
00:18:51,997 --> 00:18:54,465
Usually takes weeks to get in.
You look at the research?

294
00:18:54,500 --> 00:18:58,095
- Seriously, can I just eat?
- No.

295
00:18:58,170 --> 00:19:01,105
- I'm sorry. You don't have time.
- Time for what?

296
00:19:01,140 --> 00:19:04,769
There's a... an enema.

297
00:19:04,810 --> 00:19:07,608
- Uh, Izzie's enema.
- Yes.

298
00:19:07,646 --> 00:19:10,979
I was supposed to get an enema today,
but I decided it can wait.

299
00:19:11,049 --> 00:19:14,143
- Talk about something else?
- We need to talk about it.

300
00:19:14,219 --> 00:19:18,349
You've been complaining
about being really backed up.

301
00:19:18,423 --> 00:19:21,119
- I got you an appointment.
- If you need an enema,

302
00:19:21,160 --> 00:19:24,027
- you shouldn't have fries.
- You booked her for an enema?

303
00:19:24,863 --> 00:19:27,991
You can't just say that you're
all backed up and just sit there.

304
00:19:28,066 --> 00:19:30,193
If you make the decision
to get an enema,

305
00:19:30,235 --> 00:19:34,171
- you should get an enema.
- Maybe you're the one that's backed up.

306
00:19:34,239 --> 00:19:36,867
Solo surgery panic? Tell you what.

307
00:19:36,942 --> 00:19:39,809
I'll scrub in.
If you can't handle it, I'll take over.

308
00:19:39,878 --> 00:19:43,211
I don't... OK. You know...

309
00:19:43,282 --> 00:19:47,013
I'm just saying...
enemas can be a serious business.

310
00:19:47,085 --> 00:19:49,952
OK. Izzie, enema is code for what?

311
00:19:51,924 --> 00:19:55,018
- My enema, my business.
- Uh, fifteen minutes!

312
00:19:56,361 --> 00:19:59,125
This is a really strange day.

313
00:20:00,432 --> 00:20:02,730
I was a second-year resident.
MVC rolls in.

314
00:20:02,801 --> 00:20:06,862
Parents in the front seat. Three kids in
the back. Kids were OK. Mom and dad

315
00:20:06,939 --> 00:20:11,000
a little banged up. Nothing terrible,
talking and laughing in the ER.

316
00:20:11,043 --> 00:20:14,843
Turns out both parents
had massive internal injuries.

317
00:20:14,880 --> 00:20:18,213
I operated
on them both that night. Hours.

318
00:20:18,283 --> 00:20:19,750
Lost them both.

319
00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:26,986
If I'd moved faster, rushed them to CT,
known how bad off they were sooner,

320
00:20:27,025 --> 00:20:30,859
but... I didn't.
The oldest kid was nine.

321
00:20:30,896 --> 00:20:33,364
When I came out to tell them
about their dad,

322
00:20:34,333 --> 00:20:37,496
he was consoling the three-
and five-year-old about their mother.

323
00:20:38,637 --> 00:20:41,731
I'll never get that image out
of my head. This nine-year-old boy

324
00:20:41,773 --> 00:20:46,267
trying to hold these two little ones,
his arms just not big enough.

325
00:20:49,815 --> 00:20:52,306
I don't know
how I came back the next day.

326
00:20:53,452 --> 00:20:55,886
I think part of me never did.

327
00:20:58,090 --> 00:21:00,684
I'm surprised
you didn't talk about Iraq.

328
00:21:00,726 --> 00:21:02,489
I don't talk about Iraq.

329
00:21:02,527 --> 00:21:05,792
What my point was, I kept...

330
00:21:05,864 --> 00:21:08,594
You know, I... I went back.

331
00:21:08,667 --> 00:21:10,464
I showed up. I...

332
00:21:11,637 --> 00:21:13,264
I showed up for work, you know?

333
00:21:14,606 --> 00:21:17,439
You go dead inside...

334
00:21:17,509 --> 00:21:19,773
You go dead inside
because if you felt it,

335
00:21:19,845 --> 00:21:24,145
if you let yourself feel that,
no way you're going back.

336
00:21:24,182 --> 00:21:25,206
No way.

337
00:21:44,936 --> 00:21:47,461
- You blew it off?
- Cristina, please.

338
00:21:49,041 --> 00:21:52,272
I called every favor I had
in this hospital and then some.

339
00:21:52,344 --> 00:21:55,370
Swender's the best surgical oncologist.
Why didn't you go?

340
00:21:55,414 --> 00:21:58,611
- Why do you care so much?
- Why don't you?

341
00:21:58,650 --> 00:22:01,448
I'm working really hard on this.
The least you could do...

342
00:22:01,486 --> 00:22:05,946
They were calling the guy Blowhole.
Not just the interns, Alex.

343
00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:08,619
What are they gonna call me
when I'm the patient?

344
00:22:08,660 --> 00:22:12,118
- Swiss Cheese for Brains?
- No, that's awkward and long.

345
00:22:12,164 --> 00:22:15,190
- Blowhole's pithy.
- I'm not gonna be a piece of meat

346
00:22:15,267 --> 00:22:17,633
while you all fight over
who gets to slice me up

347
00:22:17,669 --> 00:22:21,469
- and then laugh while you do it.
- OK, this right here,

348
00:22:21,540 --> 00:22:25,533
this, um, is an emotional
thing you're having,

349
00:22:25,610 --> 00:22:28,170
which is why you should tell Meredith,
or George...

350
00:22:28,246 --> 00:22:30,714
I'm not telling anybody,
so just drop it!

351
00:22:31,516 --> 00:22:35,475
No! You're not dumping this on me.
You're not dying in my arms.

352
00:22:35,520 --> 00:22:41,516
- So either you tell them or I will.
- I don't even know if I want treatment.

353
00:22:42,561 --> 00:22:45,655
I know too much.
I know how violent surgery can be.

354
00:22:45,731 --> 00:22:48,700
They're gonna cut into my brain,
slice open my abdomen

355
00:22:48,767 --> 00:22:51,133
and pull my organs out. And for what?

356
00:22:51,169 --> 00:22:55,435
Surgery fails all the time. Derek
Shepherd is in the freaking woods

357
00:22:55,474 --> 00:22:57,999
because we fail all the time!

358
00:22:58,076 --> 00:23:01,443
Even if they do everything, I have
a five percent chance of survival.

359
00:23:01,480 --> 00:23:03,505
Five percent.

360
00:23:03,815 --> 00:23:08,309
Why would I put myself through hell,
run poison through my veins,

361
00:23:08,353 --> 00:23:11,652
irradiate my brain
if it's not gonna work anyway?

362
00:23:15,694 --> 00:23:17,093
Why did you tell me then?

363
00:23:18,964 --> 00:23:22,695
If you don't want my help and you're
not gonna do anything about it,

364
00:23:22,734 --> 00:23:24,429
why did you tell me?

365
00:23:27,139 --> 00:23:29,471
Keep your mouth shut.
Forget I told you anything.

366
00:23:29,508 --> 00:23:30,668
Izzie!

367
00:23:38,817 --> 00:23:41,752
You need to call them back, Dave.

368
00:23:41,820 --> 00:23:45,779
You're my surgeon, right?
You're not my shrink.

369
00:23:45,857 --> 00:23:50,123
- So why don't you just do your job?
- I can't do my job anymore.

370
00:23:50,162 --> 00:23:53,825
It took us three years to find the
right candidate, and part of you being

371
00:23:53,865 --> 00:23:56,834
the right candidate is having
a support system post-op.

372
00:23:56,868 --> 00:24:00,395
You cannot do this alone.
The ethics board will not allow me

373
00:24:00,439 --> 00:24:04,967
to let you do it alone.
You need your friends.

374
00:24:05,477 --> 00:24:07,945
You see that orchid?

375
00:24:08,013 --> 00:24:12,848
It's ugly. To anyone who doesn't
know orchids, it's dark and droopy

376
00:24:12,884 --> 00:24:16,183
and it's ugly, unless you know it.

377
00:24:16,221 --> 00:24:21,181
Unless you understand how it adapted,
what it's lived through,

378
00:24:21,226 --> 00:24:24,195
and how strong it had to be to survive.

379
00:24:24,229 --> 00:24:28,256
A photo of that orchid, that's the
only picture my friends had seen of me.

380
00:24:28,333 --> 00:24:32,292
That's how I wanted them to picture me
until I had my new face.

381
00:24:34,272 --> 00:24:37,139
People look away from me.

382
00:24:39,110 --> 00:24:43,046
Kids cry and adults cringe.

383
00:24:43,081 --> 00:24:45,447
They look away.

384
00:24:48,053 --> 00:24:50,886
I didn't want my friends...

385
00:24:50,922 --> 00:24:55,291
I didn't want them to ever have
any reason to look away.

386
00:24:55,660 --> 00:24:57,719
They didn't look away.

387
00:24:58,497 --> 00:25:02,661
Your friends, they didn't cringe.
Not one of them.

388
00:25:02,734 --> 00:25:05,601
They didn't look away.
You looked away, didn't trust them.

389
00:25:05,637 --> 00:25:07,662
You looked away from them.

390
00:25:08,373 --> 00:25:11,308
Let us call them.
They flew all the way here.

391
00:25:11,376 --> 00:25:15,005
Just let us call them back.
It's not too late.

392
00:25:15,046 --> 00:25:20,348
If you want this surgery, Dave,
you gotta give them a chance.

393
00:25:24,756 --> 00:25:26,451
Uh, Chief?

394
00:25:27,692 --> 00:25:30,320
- Dr. Bailey?
- How's your mood?

395
00:25:31,863 --> 00:25:36,232
Eager. Anxious. I'm excited
about Sloan's face transplant.

396
00:25:36,268 --> 00:25:39,829
I'm a little concerned about Derek,
but all in all...

397
00:25:39,871 --> 00:25:42,396
- Do I look like a therapist?
- You asked.

398
00:25:44,776 --> 00:25:49,611
I've lost Hunt and Torres.
I sent them to get Shepherd,

399
00:25:49,648 --> 00:25:51,548
and I never heard from them again.

400
00:25:51,616 --> 00:25:55,108
I was trying to solve
the Shepherd situation for you, sir.

401
00:25:55,153 --> 00:25:57,849
But it appears I've somehow
made it three times worse.

402
00:25:57,889 --> 00:26:01,791
So I'm telling you,
and my next move, I believe,

403
00:26:01,826 --> 00:26:03,555
is that I'm gonna call the police.

404
00:26:03,595 --> 00:26:07,326
Because I'm half convinced
they're all dead.

405
00:26:07,365 --> 00:26:11,563
On a spit with a one-armed man
turning them into shish kebabs, sir.

406
00:26:12,037 --> 00:26:13,937
It's my mind, it just goes there.

407
00:26:15,240 --> 00:26:17,504
- Don't beat yourself up.
- It's a hard decision.

408
00:26:17,542 --> 00:26:19,908
Yeah, you've been with Pierce
for the whole year.

409
00:26:19,945 --> 00:26:21,537
Just listen to your heart...

410
00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:24,777
- Why are they starting late?
- A problem with the recipient.

411
00:26:24,816 --> 00:26:27,808
They've only got a few hours left
for that face to be viable.

412
00:26:28,286 --> 00:26:30,720
Sloan must be freaking out, right?

413
00:26:35,226 --> 00:26:38,161
- Home wrecker.
- What did you say? What did you say?

414
00:26:38,196 --> 00:26:41,632
- Guys!
- You two, get out. You, come with me.

415
00:26:41,666 --> 00:26:44,760
- Come on.
- Hey, buddy.

416
00:26:44,803 --> 00:26:47,670
You need to start talking.
You need to start talking now.

417
00:26:47,706 --> 00:26:51,506
- I really can't. Talk to Steve.
- You gotta start talking, dude,

418
00:26:51,543 --> 00:26:55,775
because any second, they're gonna start
that face transplant surgery.

419
00:26:55,814 --> 00:26:57,406
- Her friend...
- Best friend.

420
00:26:57,449 --> 00:27:01,749
...is gonna have her very first
solo surgery, and so...

421
00:27:01,820 --> 00:27:04,846
- ...we have little patience right now.
- It's not my place...

422
00:27:04,889 --> 00:27:10,486
OK! You are gonna tell me
everything that's going on.

423
00:27:10,996 --> 00:27:14,090
Or else every time I have a rectal exam
or an infected abscess,

424
00:27:14,165 --> 00:27:16,497
it's gonna have your name on it.
Every time!

425
00:27:23,441 --> 00:27:26,205
Megan was with Pierce.
But they broke up.

426
00:27:26,244 --> 00:27:29,645
While they were broken up,
she slept with Steve.

427
00:27:29,714 --> 00:27:33,514
Then she got back together with Pierce.
But Steve sent her an e-mail

428
00:27:33,585 --> 00:27:36,645
about how they slept together.
Instead of e-mailing her,

429
00:27:36,721 --> 00:27:39,155
he hit "reply all,"
went to a bunch of people.

430
00:27:39,190 --> 00:27:41,886
One of them was Pierce.
Now Steve says he loves her.

431
00:27:41,926 --> 00:27:45,089
Pierce wants to kill him.
Megan's really freaking out

432
00:27:45,130 --> 00:27:48,463
because... OK, wait. So a while back,

433
00:27:48,533 --> 00:27:52,594
someone sent this text message.
I didn't get it, didn't get to see it.

434
00:27:52,637 --> 00:27:54,730
It just came to certain people's phones.

435
00:27:58,977 --> 00:28:02,572
Why would they come back?
I was cruel. I was hateful.

436
00:28:02,614 --> 00:28:05,811
You were scared. They surprised you.

437
00:28:05,850 --> 00:28:09,445
You were in shock. It wasn't
what you were expecting. You were...

438
00:28:09,487 --> 00:28:11,352
- You were just...
- I was awful.

439
00:28:12,524 --> 00:28:18,292
You were scared.
And you were trying to protect them.

440
00:28:18,329 --> 00:28:21,162
If they're your friends,
they'll understand.

441
00:28:36,214 --> 00:28:39,479
I didn't want you
to see it. This.

442
00:28:39,517 --> 00:28:43,317
This ugliness, it... it isn't me.

443
00:28:43,354 --> 00:28:45,686
I... I didn't want you to see it.

444
00:28:50,895 --> 00:28:53,420
This, right here,

445
00:28:53,498 --> 00:28:56,524
looks just like the Coryanthes speciosa.

446
00:28:56,568 --> 00:29:01,028
- You guys see that?
- She's right.

447
00:29:01,072 --> 00:29:03,768
The coloring's just the same.

448
00:29:06,611 --> 00:29:11,878
If the surgery doesn't take, if I
reject the donor face, I'll be uglier.

449
00:29:11,916 --> 00:29:15,181
I'll... I'll be even uglier
than I am right now.

450
00:29:15,220 --> 00:29:19,350
Please don't call my dear friend ugly.

451
00:29:19,390 --> 00:29:21,449
You're a survivor.

452
00:29:21,493 --> 00:29:24,087
And it's written all over your face.

453
00:29:47,852 --> 00:29:50,252
What the hell is this? This is not OK.

454
00:29:50,288 --> 00:29:55,316
I have a hospital to run.
And Derek! What's the matter with you?

455
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:57,328
- We've all been there.
- We said that.

456
00:29:57,362 --> 00:30:00,763
- We've all had tough losses.
- He knows that.

457
00:30:01,633 --> 00:30:04,568
We show up the next day
and we try and save the next life.

458
00:30:04,602 --> 00:30:09,005
- Yeah, we covered that too.
- OK, what about this?

459
00:30:09,741 --> 00:30:11,902
Nothing we do can stop death.

460
00:30:11,943 --> 00:30:14,810
We can hold it at bay now and then.
But everyone dies.

461
00:30:15,547 --> 00:30:16,639
And that's not on us.

462
00:30:22,320 --> 00:30:26,689
I took a pregnant woman in
for a simple surgery, and I botched it.

463
00:30:26,724 --> 00:30:30,490
That is on me.
I should feel badly about that.

464
00:30:30,528 --> 00:30:34,294
And you? You should feel badly
that while I was out here,

465
00:30:34,332 --> 00:30:38,826
you sent Meredith out here expecting
a ring. Why would you do that?

466
00:30:38,870 --> 00:30:41,805
Why in God's name would you do that?

467
00:30:45,743 --> 00:30:47,108
I was trying to help.

468
00:30:48,413 --> 00:30:50,608
She didn't wanna come.

469
00:30:50,648 --> 00:30:53,048
She wanted to leave you
out here alone...

470
00:30:54,052 --> 00:30:57,021
- I was trying to help.
- Trying to help yourself, not me.

471
00:30:57,055 --> 00:30:59,216
Yourself.

472
00:31:00,358 --> 00:31:02,588
I hit the ring in the woods.

473
00:31:02,627 --> 00:31:03,958
In the woods.

474
00:31:06,497 --> 00:31:07,521
You destroyed me.

475
00:31:16,841 --> 00:31:20,470
This is the final dissection.
We'll place the facial graft.

476
00:31:20,511 --> 00:31:23,344
I'll connect vessels and nerves.
Get the microscope ready.

477
00:31:23,381 --> 00:31:25,349
Yes, right away.

478
00:31:27,652 --> 00:31:30,314
OK, people. It's time.

479
00:31:31,456 --> 00:31:34,448
- Ever put a new face on someone?
- Really?

480
00:31:34,492 --> 00:31:37,222
I'll take the right side.
You take the left.

481
00:31:38,263 --> 00:31:39,992
Very gently.

482
00:31:41,065 --> 00:31:44,694
That's it. Take your time.
He's not going anywhere.

483
00:31:46,271 --> 00:31:47,431
Thank you.

484
00:31:49,340 --> 00:31:52,901
Watch the left corner of his mouth.
You're off center just a bit.

485
00:31:54,112 --> 00:31:57,946
There we go.
Careful around the eyes.

486
00:31:59,183 --> 00:32:01,811
Good. Very good, Dr. Grey.

487
00:32:16,801 --> 00:32:17,995
- Get out.
- No.

488
00:32:18,036 --> 00:32:19,060
- Get out!
- No!

489
00:32:19,137 --> 00:32:21,765
- Richard, get out!
- No!

490
00:32:22,874 --> 00:32:26,139
I've destroyed lives before.
Several, in fact.

491
00:32:26,177 --> 00:32:29,510
Yours is not one of them. I sent the
woman you love out here to help you.

492
00:32:29,547 --> 00:32:33,347
I sent the woman who loves you
out here to bring you back to your life.

493
00:32:33,384 --> 00:32:37,286
If you ruin it with her, that's on you.
I don't accept it.

494
00:32:38,222 --> 00:32:40,884
You're scared, drunk,
don't know which way is up.

495
00:32:40,959 --> 00:32:44,793
You threw a punch at your best friend,
a ring at Meredith, wanna throw me out.

496
00:32:44,829 --> 00:32:46,729
I'm not accepting it!

497
00:32:47,398 --> 00:32:51,664
Because I'm older than you,
and I've been where you are.

498
00:32:52,003 --> 00:32:54,665
You been drunk for a few days.
I was drunk for years.

499
00:32:57,942 --> 00:33:00,274
And I know
you're gonna need at least one friend

500
00:33:00,311 --> 00:33:02,802
when you come out of that hole
you're digging.

501
00:33:06,851 --> 00:33:08,842
I hope you come out of it soon.

502
00:33:12,757 --> 00:33:14,418
I'll be here when you do.

503
00:33:16,594 --> 00:33:18,459
I don't think I can get her back.

504
00:33:22,166 --> 00:33:23,633
Did you call her?

505
00:33:28,473 --> 00:33:30,839
What am I gonna say?

506
00:33:34,946 --> 00:33:37,176
I had an affair for years.

507
00:33:39,217 --> 00:33:42,050
When Adele found out, somehow she...

508
00:33:46,391 --> 00:33:48,757
She took me back.

509
00:33:52,063 --> 00:33:54,293
You can make your way back...

510
00:33:55,566 --> 00:33:57,193
...from anything.

511
00:34:00,204 --> 00:34:02,900
This is year one of your residency.

512
00:34:02,940 --> 00:34:06,103
You turn on each other now,
you're not gonna make it.

513
00:34:11,082 --> 00:34:13,778
OK. Here's what's gonna happen.

514
00:34:13,818 --> 00:34:17,185
All of you are going to go find
the sense the good Lord gave you

515
00:34:17,255 --> 00:34:21,157
and never behave like this
within the four walls of this hospital

516
00:34:21,225 --> 00:34:24,023
ever again. You are doctors.

517
00:34:24,062 --> 00:34:28,192
Pierce, get an ice pack and put it on
that oozing, disgusting mess of an eye.

518
00:34:28,266 --> 00:34:31,702
And, Steve, go to the pit
and get that unsanitary,

519
00:34:31,769 --> 00:34:34,567
bloody hand X-rayed and stitched.

520
00:34:34,639 --> 00:34:39,667
And, Megan, you should go to OB
because yes, you are pregnant.

521
00:34:41,479 --> 00:34:43,879
That was very Bailey.

522
00:34:47,452 --> 00:34:51,445
- You ready, Dr. Yang?
- Wait! I'm sorry.

523
00:34:51,489 --> 00:34:53,980
I need one thing from you
before I go under.

524
00:34:54,025 --> 00:34:57,119
I haven't asked for much.
You haven't answered my questions.

525
00:34:57,161 --> 00:34:59,755
I understand you're busy,
but I'm scared.

526
00:34:59,831 --> 00:35:03,494
I don't wanna die. I want to go
on a tour of Russia with my friends.

527
00:35:03,534 --> 00:35:08,335
I may just be a batty old lady to you,
and this may be a silly procedure,

528
00:35:08,372 --> 00:35:11,967
but I need you to tell me
that it's gonna be OK.

529
00:35:12,009 --> 00:35:14,204
You're my surgeon, after all.

530
00:35:16,447 --> 00:35:19,348
This isn't a silly procedure to me,
Miss Sulley.

531
00:35:19,383 --> 00:35:23,012
- And I will get you through this.
- OK.

532
00:35:23,054 --> 00:35:24,248
Thank you.

533
00:35:25,823 --> 00:35:27,017
I'm ready now.

534
00:35:46,744 --> 00:35:49,212
Izzie has stage four metastatic melanoma

535
00:35:49,247 --> 00:35:51,772
that has spread to her brain,
liver and skin.

536
00:35:51,816 --> 00:35:56,116
She may only have months to live
and she's resisting treatment.

537
00:35:56,187 --> 00:35:58,052
She needs help.

538
00:36:02,426 --> 00:36:03,859
Scalpel.

539
00:36:18,609 --> 00:36:20,804
Don't try to talk. It'll only hurt.

540
00:36:20,878 --> 00:36:23,904
- You did great.
- Can he see his new face?

541
00:36:23,948 --> 00:36:27,213
- I think he'd really like to see it.
- It's still early.

542
00:36:27,285 --> 00:36:31,483
It's very swollen and bruised.
The tissue needs time to settle.

543
00:36:31,556 --> 00:36:35,686
But yeah. I'll give you a sneak peak.

544
00:37:28,379 --> 00:37:30,847
Sometimes we fail,
but that's not always the case.

545
00:37:30,881 --> 00:37:32,371
I know.

546
00:37:32,917 --> 00:37:37,411
Blowhole has a new face. And what people
call him to get through the day has...

547
00:37:37,455 --> 00:37:38,752
I know.

548
00:37:41,525 --> 00:37:44,790
I told Alex. And Bailey.

549
00:37:44,829 --> 00:37:47,821
And they're telling Meredith and George.

550
00:37:48,266 --> 00:37:50,461
- Cristina...
- I couldn't do my job.

551
00:37:50,501 --> 00:37:53,129
I think you came to me for help,
and that's what I did.

552
00:37:53,170 --> 00:37:55,968
Because sometimes we win, Izzie.

553
00:37:56,707 --> 00:37:58,231
And I want you to fight.

554
00:37:59,377 --> 00:38:02,244
OK? For whatever that's worth,
I want you to fight.

555
00:38:10,688 --> 00:38:11,950
Thank you.

556
00:38:51,262 --> 00:38:52,524
Dr. Grey.

557
00:38:53,898 --> 00:38:57,026
They think you're taking advantage
of me, that I'm using you.

558
00:38:57,068 --> 00:38:59,434
But they don't know us.

559
00:38:59,470 --> 00:39:02,462
They think that we're ugly,
but I know that we're beautiful.

560
00:39:03,274 --> 00:39:05,799
And we can adapt
to a hostile environment.

561
00:39:19,357 --> 00:39:22,326
- Thanks for coming.
- Thanks for calling.

562
00:39:25,963 --> 00:39:27,123
I love you.

563
00:39:29,367 --> 00:39:30,698
I know.

564
00:39:35,072 --> 00:39:37,632
Would you still love me
if I wasn't a surgeon?

565
00:39:41,379 --> 00:39:42,403
No.

566
00:39:49,286 --> 00:39:52,881
No, because Izzie...

567
00:39:54,158 --> 00:39:56,854
...has skin cancer
that's spread to her brain.

568
00:39:59,330 --> 00:40:02,322
You're one of about 20 people
in the world who can save her.

569
00:40:03,801 --> 00:40:08,568
I don't know if I respect somebody who
could walk away from a gift like that.

570
00:40:11,275 --> 00:40:12,902
So please don't.

571
00:40:16,747 --> 00:40:18,772
Here are her scans.

572
00:40:21,385 --> 00:40:23,080
It's pretty bad.

573
00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:38,195
<i>Practicing medicine</i>

574
00:40:38,235 --> 00:40:40,999
<i>doesn't lend itself well to</i>
<i>the making of friends.</i>

575
00:40:45,342 --> 00:40:47,970
<i>Maybe because life and mortality...</i>

576
00:40:51,482 --> 00:40:53,746
<i>...are in our faces all the time.</i>

577
00:40:56,387 --> 00:40:59,049
<i>Maybe because in</i>
<i>staring down death every day...</i>

578
00:41:00,691 --> 00:41:03,023
<i>...we're forced to know that life...</i>

579
00:41:04,061 --> 00:41:05,756
<i>...every minute...</i>

580
00:41:07,097 --> 00:41:08,359
<i>...is borrowed time.</i>

581
00:41:15,940 --> 00:41:18,875
<i>And each person</i>
<i>we let ourselves care about...</i>

582
00:41:25,049 --> 00:41:27,984
<i>...is just one more loss,</i>
<i>somewhere down the line.</i>

583
00:41:35,559 --> 00:41:38,050
<i>For this reason,</i>

584
00:41:38,095 --> 00:41:42,156
<i>I know some doctors who just</i>
<i>don't bother making friends at all.</i>

585
00:41:50,574 --> 00:41:52,132
<i>But the rest of us...</i>

586
00:41:53,978 --> 00:41:56,469
<i>...we make it ourjob to move that line.</i>

587
00:41:59,884 --> 00:42:02,079
<i>To push each loss...</i>

588
00:42:05,022 --> 00:42:07,547
<i>...as far away as we can.</i>
